depression from love


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This is him, the dude i  love .

Im not gounna say his name but he knows its him if he ever comes on this site.
 hes fucking amazing, hes the most awinspiring person i know. hes very mature for being only 14. you can have these long perosnal convoursations with him and he'll sit and listen. he is not only the guy i care about so much, but one of my closest frend. he is so caring and sweet, that you cant help but love him. i havnt had much luck with being more than a friend with him. we're too good of friends, suppossedly, to start a relationship. guess which one of us said that, but i still care so much about him. he has a great sense of humor too. he can make a grey day sunny again. lyk when im realli said or bummed out he'll say sumthing and turn it around to make it funny. he makes great music,too. if you dont believe me go to then you'll believe me. i dont wanna push him to go out with me so ive backed off of wondering with him. i will feel happy for him though as soon as he finds sumone to care for thatll care for  him back. it's okay if you think im obsessed with him, everyone else says i am. and its okay, i probably am. im just a lozer that loves sumone. for the guy i care for, if u ever come on this site i will understand if u never want to speak to me again but this is how i feel. i'm not sorry for having this posted on the internet, this is just how much  i care for you. I actually hope you do read this so you will know how i feel. i've tried to actually say the words to you, but they dont come out right so in here i can do it. i have cared so much for you since august fourth of 2003. i never thought we'd be this close, i never thought you'd even ever speak to me but the words we have said to each other sure passed that, but i've cared for you in such a stronger way and im sure you're tired of so many girls lyking you but it's very hard not to. Your just so amazing. Youre lips are soft and your eyes are amazing, but those aren't why i love you. i love you for you, i love you for who you are and what you've done for me. I hope one day you will feel the same but till then i will wait till that day. i feel as though we are growing farther apart. i hope we still talk and hang out when you leave. it hurts to see you with someone else but thats what you want and if it makes you happy then im happy, :/. *sigh* but i alwayz hope you're happy, cuz it hurts even more to see you depressed. i hope you have a great life if we never see, hear, or think of each other after this year. you deserve a great life for all you are. Yure amazing, no matter what ne one says. I love you. I know those are strong words but its the truth. :'( i feel depressed when i think of you leaving and the thought of  losing the memory of you. It will be hard, but i kno, one day I'll lose you as a frend, a supporter, and a memory. I dread the day this happends, but i know it will. If it doesnt ill be shocked but i will miss you more than you will ever miss me. You might miss me, i doubt that, but i will think of you too often untill i lose your memory. I dread that day and pray it doesnt come anytyme soon. I can never stay mad at you, and when i am you always do sumthing to make me smile even bigger than i normally would. :D.


 ~   Here in this space i will put saying that i think relate
                            to how i feel about him ~
~If I hAd To ChOoSe WhEaThEr To LoVe YoU oR tO bReAtHe i'd UsE mY vEry lAsT bReAtH tO sAy I lOvE yOu!
~the worst way to miss sumone is to have them sitting next to you.

~Love is willing to wait instead of demanding "show me that you care, Now."

~Love doesnt hate the girl that is going out with the guy you like.

~mr. right has come and swept me off my feet just he doesnt know it.  

~ if  i never  hear  frum  you  again i hope youll remember these three simple words, i love you. you may never know just how much i love you, but remember those three words every tyme you hear my name, or see my face in a crowd.
~ " I wrote your name in the sand but the waves washed it away. I wrote your name on my hand but I washed it the next day. I wrote your name on a paper but I accidentally threw it away. I wrote your name in my heart and forever it will stay."
~look into my eyes - you will see what you mean to me search your heart -
search your soul and when you find me there you'll search no more
don't tell me it's not worth trying for you can't tell me it's not worth dying for you
know it's true look into my heart you will find there's nothing there
to hide take me as i am take my life i would give it all i would sacrifice
don't tell me it's not worth fighting for i can't help it there's nothing
i want more you know it's true everything i do -
i do it for you there's no love like your love and no other could give more love
there's nowhere - unless you're there all the time - all the way...
~*i wanna be the reason* why he smiLes*
~i bet you'll never remember...
the things i will never forget*`
~*I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care,
I'm not supposed to live my life, wishing you were there.
I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do,
I'm sorry I just can't help myself, I fell in love with you*
~u DoNt DeSeRvE Me
i KnOw ThAt ItS TrUe
bUt I WaNt u So bAd..
WuT Do I Do? ( with that saying im not completely sure about, i think its more lyk i dont deserve you)
~after a while, you learn the difference between holding hands and falling in love, you begin to learn that kisses don't always mean anything, flirting doesn't always mean he likes you, promises can be broken just as quickly as they were made, sometimes goodbyes really are forever, and many times wishes don't come true* ( damn is that true)
~··:·..€You Don't Choose Who Your Heart Falls For, You Fall For Who Your Heart Chooses€..·:··
~anYtime u wAnt me juSs say so
- cOz wen i coMes to yOu -
**i cAnt say No
~. something . happens .
. when . i . look . in2 . ur . eyez .
. i . noticed . it . when .
. tha . light . was . just . right .
. it . reminded . me . again .
. that . i . was . alive .
. n . that . u . were . definetly .
. worth . tha . fight .
~i wanna b da wun .. he gave it up fOr `
whO made him hang hiis jerzy On da '
bak of his dOor .. da wun whO gOt him '
sayiin *i dun wanna b playiin nO mOre
~bOi im diGgn yOou..
cOZ ya mAke me waNna
-do alL them thiNgz-
i wAs tAught nOt to
~EvRy1 KnOwS ThAt I'M ShY, AnD I CouLd BaRlEy EvEr ApPrOaCh A GUy, BuT i WaNNa FiNd A wAy 2 GeT u 2 NoTiCE Me, AnD i WaNna GeT WhiT u, As u CaN SeE!!
~I CrY fOr YoU aT nIgHt, I nO uR Mr. RiGhT, I sEaRcH fOr YoU iN dReAmS, AnD I dOn'T kNow WhAt YoU tHiNk BoUt Me, BuT iM bEtTeR tHaN i SeEm!
~I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
I'd love you to love me.
I'm beggin' you to beg me.
~We might be best friends one year,
Pretty good friends the next year,
Don't talk that often the next,
And don't want to talk at all the year after that.
So, I just wanted to say,
Even if I never talk to you again in my life,
You are special to me and
You have made a difference in my life,
look up to you,
Respect you,
Truly cherish you,
and most of all I love you.
~As I write this letter
Send my love to you
Remember that I'll always
Be in love with you
Treasure these few words till we're together
Keep all my love forever
P.S. I love you
You, you, you

~I swear that I can go on forever again
Please let me know that my one bad day will end
I will go down as your lover, your friend
Give me your lips and with one kiss we begin
Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you

~ Love isn't who you can picture yourself with, it's who you can't picture yourself without.

~ Never give up if you still want to try, never wipe your tears away if you still want to cry, never settle for the answer if you still want to know, and never say you don't love him anymore if you can't let him go.

~ Someday you'll cry for me the way I've cried for you. Someday you'll feel pain for me the way I felt it for you. Someday you'll want me back and I won't want you.

«Thankx to meggie Poo for most of the sayings.«